ahhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!! tonight is the last night here, i can't get over it. i know i said i would be keeping it updated on the count down... but when your busy and you stay out till god knows when it's hard to stay up and write.

i have never laughed and smiled so much in life. i have never fully been this content on things. deep down i'm sad as hell about shit. i'm leaving my family. i'm leaving my mom and dad, i'm leaving my brother and nephew. I'm just leaving and i'm not fully okay with it. it sux being in love. its the best feeling in the world. cloud 9 can't compare to how i feel. at the same time of feeling so happy it can also hurt knowing that you're leaving and most importantly when you feel like they don't feel the same. i've never felt so comfortable in someones arms and i have never ever cried so much cuz it hurts. my last night is spent with family. and with my tears on my pillow cuz i know i won't see him.

in like six months i haven't been on here for the most commonest reason... i forgot my password.

anyways i  been sitting around being a loser for the last six months because i can't find a job. but i been beading like a maniac. i can do this i keep telling myself. i like having my money but i don't like stabbing myself with a needle to do it... i have some massive calluses on my finger tips. you could swear i was a diabetic because of it.

this summer i have swam, cooked, beaded, assisted in an outfit. I have pow wowed a little bit and most importantly i have made up with my cousin aka my sister. I love her so much that life is dole without her in it. 

Salish Language

my passion in life has been very clear to the ones that come and go in our department here at SKC. I have my whole life to achieve them moments that will stay behind after i leave this world. At this point a lot of my people need to wake up from their nests and see that we don't have our whole lives to save our language.


I wasn't aware of what i was getting myself into when i jumped head first in the language, i just knew that if it made me feel great and have a self identity then i want to help others. i want others to feel this great about being indian. I've always been the one to fight and voice my opinion. why not fight for my people i thought? why not make my grandpa happy, maybe i'll have a great understanding on why my grandma is the way she is. As the time has moved on after i made up my mind i realize no matter the reason of my grandma is the way she is... it̓s up to me to reach out and do this. I maybe one person, there is a lot of us younger ones that want to and have made the stand to say that the past is no longer going to effect who we are and what we̓re going to be doing. I love my language so much! the days i want to cry and give up on life i bounce back because that̓s when my adopted family will talk in the language. We have lost enough of great people, and when they pass we end up loosing all their knowledge. That̓s the saddest part. Not everyone is a natural teacher or has it in them. They do however have the knowledge and it̓s up to us to tap into it.


I have fell so completely, head over heels, deeply in love with my language. Every indian person out there needs their identity and i strongly believe that one of the fastest and quickest way of providing it, is to teach them the language! culture will go hand in hand and guess what?! they will have their identity. being indian is more then just saying you are or having a pedagree! i could just go off for days, but that would be to much! i just feel that in order to keep my language alive and thriving is we need to put all the meaness away, and stop our negative behaviors. we need as the people need to stand strong with our elders! i think that is the only way to make it live on. (plus to not kill fairies lol!)