first love never dies

truth is this...
6 years and i still love this guy. it never ended and we were never ever together like that. so we'll call him T. and the stupid bitch that interferes with us is C.

i was 16 and way dumb to the city ways
apparently i was his gurl...
that's when i fell in love with you
that school bus gave us a ride straight to love
we had our little crew too
they all knew we were the new hot thing
didn't matter what was going on we had each other

i had a crappy life style
all the mental and emotional abuse
i remember i seen you when they closed them ambulance doors.
i cried not cuz my dad knocked my tooth out but cuz you seen me like that
T something about you had me hooked
in the midst of all this C was on the prowl
new chick from cali and was feeling you the same way i did
no shame them damn cali bastards

i give her some credit cuz she really played me
did me dirty right below my nose
didn't even smell the bullshit
i guess she was the reason we faught alot.
well she was and come to find out C was trying to get with you
so we kinda ended it between us

year passes we ran into each other
didn't really talk
found someone else, he didn't have me fully
T was in my mind
i didn't want it to be over and i wasn't going to except it
C was outta my picture, told the bitch to fuck off
almost beat her ass and she moved.
i moved shortly after.
never to say bye to you.
probably a great thing cuz i didn't want it be a good bye situation.
you were the cute love song we all have and we hit repeat.
T was my personal love song that i could never get over.
3 years in MT and all i could do is think of you.
i remember the summer i graduated, seen you
heart dropped
you could take my pulse in my toes
thump thump thump
fucking blockbuster, how could you not have a place to hide?
anyways i remember you smiled a little bit.
i just kept looking forward, i had no idea why i was mad

so here i am year six. i still feel the same way.
not mad, but madly in love.
my mistake is realizing it.
saying it and now i'm forced to believe that i do love him.
oh gee
4 days later we still have shit to talk about.
i cry every night knowing that i'm getting on that plane
not knowing when i'll see him again
once again he's going to be my memory
he's gonna be that song on the radio
he's gonna be the guy that no man can live up to
fml right.
six years and i still love you terrez
first love hurts
first love never dies
i know twenty years down the road i'll still feel the same way
it never ended.
so lets hope i don't hurt so much later!