crappy feeling

you know what i hate so damn much?
being stood up, especially to go chill with my brother. i know he's not my boyfriend, he's just a friend but holy crap when you tell me you wanna chill and make it clear that 2day was the day please don't stand me up. i mean its hard enough for me already; with hardly any friends and no life i can barely cope with myself.

round two and i'm still bothered by it. he chills with my brother and my "ex" husband. which by the way was a real fake marriage. i'm sitting here really hurt because i feel like no matter what i can't find a decent enough guy to be friends with or anything. i mean i feel more like an ass because i brought him home to my family. he goes way back with my brothers and me.

i think i just need to go rent a movie and chill out. i'm out. i'm going to try and not let this bother me at all.