old love never dies

its funny how people come and go in your life. for a brief moment i thought i would never ever see this person again that i would live the rest of my life thinking that we ended on bad terms. We actually never really ended though. facebook, seems to be the best way to find people and what do you know we found each other. emotions ran high for days on end between us and eventually the truth came out about everything. why we didn't talk anymore why everything happened. it was nice to know that we went back to our old selves. the smiles and laughs the awesome conversations about nothing. life perceptions for each other. there was one thing that did change, he became a parent. there i was looking at him in different light seeing that he was so happy to be a dad. it was glow i never seen before. well lets make this short.
i moved to CT. when i was 16 and i fell in love this guy at first sight. we never ever became nothing and everyday i was sad and confused. it was like i was in a weird love spell and couldn't break it. it took a fight and me moving to the other side of town to get away from it all. no matter what though he was on my mind. i moved across the country, i caught myself holding onto him by keeping him as a myspace friend. when i noticed i deleted him.
exactly like always he's a blast from the past. he can make me smile with out trying. he can make me cry with just one word, he can make me laugh.... he can me do all of these things and yet like when i was 16 i don't have control over any of it and catch myself falling in love all over again. i see that i'm putting myself in a trap to fail and realize that he was the one that got away from me. But T.Doc you will always be my first love and will always have that power that no other person has had over me.